MY THOTS TODAY....DO U HAVE D COURAGE?????

"grace under pressure"......dats wats "guts" is all abt...u cn call it "courage" too.i thnk today i hv gt my hands on an xtremely xtremely definitive phrase whch goes on to define courage..."GRACE UNDER PRESSURE".being graceful,intact(mentally n physically),and abv all normal looking in adverse circumstances is wat is all abt "courage".wat i jst said mite seem funny...u mite be thnkng...wat does she mean by "normal looking","intact" n all ths stuff??...well frnds...if u smile while facing d dark part of life is courage...dats wat i mean by normal looking...looking as if nthng has happnd..."intact" means keepng urself in in gud position n condition while u face d monster called"life".....it means dat dnt end up looking malnourished with dark circles beneath ur eyes...or rib cages popping out of ur chest....or worst looking as if u jst ended up having an electric shock when u were trying to iron up ur clothes 4 work....look healthy....gain weight even when gng under pressure...heheheheheheehehhheee...atleast try to retain ur normal composure if nt gain weight(in regards to those under- weight "dieting" obssesed gurls).so i thnk u all agree to ths quote by....ERNEST HEMMINGWAY

12 o'clock peek at my blog.

My blog z my own lil wrld.my own lil swt wrld of everythng i wnt n desire 4.i paint butyfl paintings hr of d colorz f lyf i wnt in my living yearz n i put wings 2 my mst intimate lil birds of hrt dat hvnt been set free since ages.so...its my frst midnyt peek at my blog.flng strnge yaar.strngly strnge.hehehehe..like i hv ntrd an empty house...hulooooo...nebdy home????

MY THOTS 2DAY...flng low on a sunday eve

Wel 2dy ppl of my generatn mst b frkng out..bt m nt.although mausam b mast hai..stil.m nt at ease emtnly.smthng..ppl cuming n gng..in n outa lyf.chintu wnt away 2dy bck 2 chitorgarh.flng lonely.nthng gud 2 preach 2dy.jst ths..2 LIVE AT ALL Z MIRACLE ENUF-MERVYN PEAK-THE GLASSBLOWER.seriously,if u manage 2 breath ths very sec,thn u r one of d mst courageous humanz on earth.wd so many emtnl blocks,tiresum routinez,'relatnl' distrbncez,dischrge of physcl 'bateriez',managng 2 live z a miracle..hai na??

After a 8 day gap-G00D EVENING

Wel,wel aunt ankeita z readng out aloud a quote on "future" 2dy.it goes this way-IF U WANT A PICTURE OF FUTURE,IMAGNE A BOOT STAMPING A HUMAN FACE 4EVA.."
wat i gt outa ths z dat r future z mankind "raping" d esence of mankind n "morphing" in2 beasts.waise b 2dy v find more ppl who love 2 "take a sip of tea"delightfuly ovr othrz painz n dificulties,than ppl who love helping out those persnz in need.so ths quote meanz dat future z-man disfiguring nthr manz xistnce 4 thr own purpose of need or pleasure.W0W..

GOOD MORNING#hello sunday#

Wel 2dy its nt d same gud old thot 4 d day...its sumthng more..it says abt 2dyz politicianz..I SIT ON A MANZ BACK,CHOKING HM N MKNG HM CARY ME,AND YET ASURE MYSLF N OTHRZ DAT M VERY SORY 4 HZ L0T N WISH 2 EASE HM-XCPT BY GTNG OFF HZ BCK.-LEO TOLSTOY..
wow...dats wat "netaaz"do.hum ye karenge vo karenge..par bhrashtachar aur kameengi nai chhodenge...hypocrites.i tel u i fl lyk slaping thm wd their "kara-dharaz".dat z wat d youth 2dy needz 2 fl.they shud lead india..minus d bhrashtachaar n kameengi...

GOOD MORNING#the magic of profitable maths equatn#

6.15am...i wz woken up mercilesly by my fawtherr...amidst those purple poppies and yelow marigolds of my drmz..ne ways.chai pi li hai..n nw m flng frsh..d mrning z also kewl..breezy wd sooraj dada smiling gayly..chalo toh fir..gud thot f d day z....#if A is suces in lyf,then A=x+y+z..work z 'x','y' is play,n 'z' is kpng ur mouth shut..-ALBERT EINSTEIN.#
nw dat z sumthng 4 u 2 rflct on...waise its true..topperz realy dnt tel hw they topped..ryt??hw mch they labourd..dats watz d meaning f d last part f d thot

GOOD MORNING ON A FRIDAY MORN

so m back here....with this gud mrning section.todays good thot made me laugh......laugh 4 nearly half an hour....(haan haan mein aj jaldi jag gai thi :-D).it goes on 2 say-
"YOU CAN CALCULATE THE WORTH OF A MAN BY THE NUMBER OF ENEMIES HE HAS,AND THE IMPORTANCE OF A WORK OF ART BY THE HARM THAT IS SPOKEN OF IT."-GUSTAVE FLAUBERT.1821-80:letter to louise colet,14th june 1853.



this is perhaps the most laughable statement i have ever read...not because its ridiculously untrue or something.....but because if its taken to be true then i m worth..........TRIIIIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLLLLIIIIIIIIIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONSSSSSSSSS.heheheheheehehe....as a matter of fact lemme tell u guys i have made more enemies then friends in my whole life...U C HUM HAIN HI ITNI MAGNETIC PERSONALITY....huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu....

MY THOTS TODAY....

So tkng up d same thot mentioned in d "gudmrning" sectn.d meaning cn b summed up lyk ths..if u r cnfrntd wd n idea whch u fnd z wrth-whle,use it,tk ful advntge 4m it,bt den,dnt jst stck 2 it 4eva.leave sum space 4 d othr ideaz 2 flw.dat way u wl chnge acrdng 2 d chngng tym n wrld,thus in proces benefiting ur own-slf by gtng mature,dynamic,mkng urslf capable 2 face adversities f d nw tyms n also by adng dat salt n spice f chnge in lyf.who wnts 2 b found stuck 2 one old rag f thot???so chnge ur outluks.

G00D MORNING...

Yaaaawwwnn..oxfrd dctnry f quotatnz n proverbs,pg 140,thot num. 6.it says-"its betr 2 ntertain n idea dan 2 tk it hm 2 live wd u 4 d rest f ur life".-randall jarrell...hmmm..full-term pregnant....wd meaning yaar.m talkng abt ths thot..aj ek acha enlighting thot palley pada..gud,gud...

MY THOTS TODAY-2

i m raeding ths new book"dictionary of quotations and proverbs"4m the oxford series....my mamma got ths 4 us just 2 days back.i m going thru the "love" section:pg 168: quotation numebr 4.i m finding ths quotation not only slanderous to "love" but also entirely insensible piece of rot.it goes like ths-LOVE IS JUST A SYSTEM FOR GETTING SOMEONE TO CALL YOU DARLING AFTER SEX.-by JULIAN BARNES 1946:TALKING THINGS OVER(1991).
hilarious!isnt it?yes!!laugh it over!dont supress it...i mean, i find ths so much untrue...i knw ppl who r deeply in love;yet r virgins or celebates,as the case may be."love" is a word pregnant with much deeper meaning.this shallow interpretation of "love" is nt only cruel to it...bt also mis-leading."love" means "understanding", "co-operation", "attachment"which stretches beyond sex to reach to mental,spiritual and emotional levels.what i speak is well proved in past by RADHA in love with LORD KRISHNA,....MEERA BAI in love with the omnipresent god in frame of LORD KRISHNA.the lyrical peice composed by meera-bai,"MOREY TOH GIRDHAR GOPAL...DUSRO NA KOI...JAKEY SIR MOR MUKUT...MERO PATI VOHI..."is not jst a lyrical piece...its an allignment of words with emotions which she actually felt n which do actually exist.
" LOVE IS BOUNDLESS,
BOUNDLESS ENOUGH....
NOT TO BE CHAINED
BY SEX"


this cannot be slighted away with the back of your hand.do u find everyone loving each other only 4 sex??is love reduced to mere physical pleasure today?oh!!how painful to even pen down these insults to love!!!!!


WOW!!!another good quotation!!very musc contradictory to the thots i expressed before on "love".4m the same book....pg 169...quotation number 41.


"by the time you say you are his,
shivering and sighing
and he vows his passion is
infinite and undying-
lady,make a note of this:
one of you is lying".-DOROTHY PARKER-"UNFORTUNATE CO-INCIDENCE"

i think this quotation only strengthens my friends arguement when he once told me-i cant love my gf like this 4eva...if i do...i wud marry her.............

Since m flng quiet "love-love" thru my head 2dy...my "gud mrning" n "my thots 2dy" sections hapn 2 b abt love.do coment if u hv same or difrnt views.

GOOD MORNING.

I saw a cat in my dreamz ystrdy nite.i wz feeding it wid paper.white.i dnt knw wat ths meanz.sumtyms drmz r so wierd dat they r d mst impsble thngs in d universe 2 b interpreted...neways!here z my gud thot f d day-the magic f frst love z r ignorance dat it cn nevr end..-benjamin disraeli.

MY THOTS TODAY

A frnd f m9 once tld me dat its posible nt 2 luv ur luver 4eva.he tld me dat if he loves hz gf enuf 2 mary hr 2dy,he mite nt luv hr ths way say aftr 2 or 3 yrz.being a woman my frst imediate reactn wz 2 thrash hm verbaly n telng hm wat n insensible n unflng creature he z!bt wd pasage f tym i realizd dat he mite b ryt aftr al.u cn permanently luv only a few ppl in ur lyf..ur parents,ur near relatives,ur best frnd,ur sibling,n dan finaly ur spouse n chldrn.ryt?

THE PEANUT..#a poem i wrote vn i wz ten yearz old#

The peanut said 2 the peanuts friend..
u r very long 2 gr8 xtent..can u guess..who cud b dat friend?...snail or snake or a simple ant?

DEAD SOUL...LISTLESS MIND....

dead soul....listless mind,emotions killed....my heart is blind,
i feel no pain,......i feel no joy.....of the things destroyed,of the things acheived,
for once my heart did endlessly grieve....for once my heart did greatly rejoice,
but now.......its only.....
dead soul...listless mind,emotions killed........my heart is blind.....

DATING MANTRA-2

HERE ARE SUM GRAET TIPS AS TO HOW TO B COMPATIBLE WITH YOUR DATE.....HOW TO STRIKE THE REAL CHEMISTRY.....


ITS BY CAROL GRACIAS....AND U KNW HER FRM TOP FASHION SHOWS AND THE BIG BOSS-THE REALITY SHOW....AND SOME OF MY IDEAS PUT FORWARD TO MAKE A PERFECT MIX OF HOW 2 HANDLE YOUR GIRL OR GUY....




1THE TRUE COLORS-A VERY SIMPLE THING IS GIVING YOUR GUY OR GIRL HIS OR HER BREATHING SPACE...CAROL SAYS..."YOU HAVE TO GIVE THE OTHER PERSON A LOT OF SPACE."SO LET THEM BE THEIR OWN PERSON AND YOU BE YOUR OWN....DONT JUST KEEP CALLING EVERY SECOND OR KEEP TRACK OF WHAT HE OR SHE DOES EVERY TEENY MEENY BIT OF TIME THE WHOLE DAY.....
2.THEY LOVE IT,..THEY LOVE IT NOT-CAROL SAYS"YOU ALWAYS HAVE 2 B SENSITIVE 2WARDS THE OTHR PERSONS NEED".SO KEEP IN MIND THEIR LIKES AND DISLIKES.GUYS ALWAYS TELL U WHAT THEY LIKE AND WHAT THEY DONT....BUT GURLS HESITATE..SO 4 U GUYS..JUST TRY 2 READ HER...KNW WAT SHE WANTS...ASK HER..OR BETTR STILL...Y NOT GO 4 SHOPPING TOGETHR? A GREAT DATE WITH LOTSA FUN....RYT??
3.THE LAWS OF ATRRACTION-SPACE, CHEMISTRY AND SENSITIVITY...AS LONG AS ALL THESE THREE R COMPATIBLE AND WORK TOGETHR...U HAVE A FANTASTIC RELATIONSHIP!!!! CAROL HERSELF RECOMMENDS"BETWEEN BOTH OF U..THERE HAS 2 B CHEMISTRY!U ALWAYS HAVE 2 B ATTRACTED 2WRDS D OTHR PERSON"
4.BE HAPPY WITH WHAT U R-ITS IMPORTANT 2 B CONFIDENT WITH WAT U R...HOW U LOOK...N UR CORE SELF BASICALLY....CAROL NARRATES"ONCE A CUTE GUY ASKED ME OUT TO DANCE ON ONE CONDITION...I SHUD NT WEAR HEELS SINCE I WAS ONE OF THE TALLER GIRLS IN MY COLLEGE....". AND WHAT DO U THNK SHE DID??????SHE WENT TO THE DANCE......BUT...WITHOUT THE HEELS????? NO........ WITHOUT THE BOY...SO DONT GO OUT WITH SUMONE WHO REFUSES TO ACCEPT U D WAY U R......

PARTING RELATIONS

i sit alone,and often wonder.....
was that my fate,or my blunder?
that parted me with all my riches,
and threw me in a world full of ditches,
oh! how blind and nervous and handicapped,
i feel today and will perhaps,
for a long long time hence forth,
for the losses and wounds i suffered before,


i often think, i often wonder.....
was that me fate, or my blunder?
that i cant see a soul around...
only agony, and vincing pain surround,
me, my being, my every breath,....
and my past consists of things i regret,
i miss those people, i miss those joys,
those hurrays!, those yipees!...and those ahoys!


but now i think, and now i wonder....
why did i think that it was my blunder?
relations part...when they ask for,
your smiles and joys...and much, much more...
they leech your blood,.....they leech your life,
they push you in the middle of a strife,
of mind and soul and heart........
such parasites are better off,
such relations better broken off,
and a new space cleared, my heart, hey!!!!!
for a new-new sun to rise one day....

5 THINGS U R CURRENTLY IN2.....

studies-dont ask 4 ne comment please....
2. music-hopping on my bed n my study table...wid ear phones plugged in my ears...
3. blogging-have strtd 2 try posting thngs everyday....
4. dating-u mite call it so,as iy mite semm so...bt actually m visiting places wid a guy whose a friend...
5. retrospection-of d mistakes i made and why i made in the past...etc. etc.

5 THINGS I ALWAYS WANTED 2 DO.......

1. to swim-i cant swim u c.....
2. to wear those tight minis and those gorgeous evening gowns-pehle figure nahi tha...ab jab figure hai toh jeb khali hai....
3. to look beautiful-sakshaat kali maa ki clone hun....heheeheheehehehheheehehe...
4. to drive a car on a highway-fast,very fast,especially those off-roof cars....so dat d wind can flow thru my open hair...
5. to visit hawaii-i am charmed by its culture ryt 4m my childhood....

5 FAVOURITE THINGS IN MY ROOM

1. my bed-i love it,so much dat i study,dance,eat,chat and exercise on it besides sleeping....lolzz
2. my window-its so butyful.i have decorated it with rajasthani side hangings and a translucent net curtain.it allows me 2 c d nite moon...n d day sun...
3. my bathroom-attached 2 my room.it has an all-over pink theme and i just love splashing wter in my bath-tub.
4. walls-they also have a pink theme...n pink is my favrte color.
5. corner-i have a corner in my room where i have got it decorated with ethinic pottery and mud-wares exclusively 4m rajasthan n gujrat.

so in a nutshell....................i looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooveeeeeeeeeeee my room.muah muah baby....heheheheehehe..

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8 qualities of a perfect guy.....................
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tagged by my sweet tuss.......................

i think here i have 2 write down some 8 qualities i will look 4 in my mr. rite...............


1. first he has 2 b very humble.should never act arrogant and shud in all conditions respect my parents and my beliefs,standings,dreams and myself.

2. secondly,he shud be quiet gud,if no a master in his field of profession.

3. he shud always understand that i am a free bird.that i need to move 2 places a lot.even without prior notice sumtimes..so there is no need 4 a massive tantrum over it,because i wud tell him once i reach there or maybe sutimes when i cum back.he wud never be kept in darkness.

4. he shud not be an orthodox indian.he shud not make an issue over what i wear,whom i meet and talk 2.

5. he shud love me as a lover,guide me as a friend and protect me as a father.

6. he shud give me prioruty over any other female,(ofcourse xcept his sis, if he has one, and his mom).he shud treat me equal to them.

7. he shud be a fun guy.not always serious and mature sorts.

8. and he shud be able 2 pick me up......lolzzzzzzzzzz.thats sumthng that i wud love.

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30 question tag..................
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tussy u tag me lyk hell............but i love it..thanks.


1. last movie-jannat.

2. book m reading-none at d momont.just studies....

3. fav. board game-i dun lyk them.

4. fav. magazine-seventeen india...its a fashion mag which also educates us teens about thngs like AIDS, teen pregnancy,dates,...etc.

5. fav. smells-wet sand on rainy days petrol ki smell and axe dimensions....i use it too....lollz.

6. fav. sounds-slow music and disco beats.

7. worst feeling in d world-failure

8. first thng i thnk wen i wake up-gosh! watta dream.

9. fav. fast food place-my kind of place(MKOP)

10. future childs name-jannat or noor or tahzeeb....depends on my hubby 2.....

11. finish ths.....if i had a lotsa money-i wud stop studing.....huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu....

12. do u drive fast-yo..

13. do u sleep wid a stuffed animal?-man!!!!! hw did u knw?

14. storms..cool or scary-very scary mann......

15. ur first car-wud be honda city...just nw m" car less".

16.fav. drink-maaza and frooty and appy fizz and leh berry peach,litchi and seabuckthorn flavours…..love them

17.finish….if I had time I would- sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep………………yawwwwwwwwwwwwwwnnnnnn

18. do u eat d stems on brocolli?-I dun eat brocolli in d first place….

19. if u cud dye ur hair…then which color wud it b?-purple

20. name all the diffrnt cities n towns u eva lived in-ajmer, agra

21. fav. Sports 2 watch-basketball if tahir is playing….else those recorded cat fites btwn chhotu (my younger bro)n me…..lolllllliezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

22. one nice thng abt a person who sent ths 2 u-he knws it….let it be a secret

23.whats undr ur bed?-mamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ……………….bhoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot………………lololsssss

24. wud u like 2 b born as urself again?-yo!!!!!

25. mrning person or nyt owl?-nyt owl………that’s d tym I cn b alone totally.

26. ovr easy or sunny side up?-sunny side up…..

27. fav.place 2 relax-my rooms balcony…..at nyt….wid soft breeze flowing….n my hair open….wooooooooooooooooooooow.

28. fav. Pie-choco pie…..n sweetypie…..lolllll

29. fav ice cream flavour-chocolate wid chocolate chips….vanilla wid choco sauce…………………..sllllurrrrrpyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

30. of all d ppl u tagged ths whos mst likely 2 reply first?-I tagged none

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5 people i hate
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tuss.....................thanks for this tag .

gossip mongers- these r those people who have nothing 2 say xcpt cause sum unnecessary trouble 4 others.
orthodox-they shud undrstnd that if they cant change with time,let others do.
double timers
arrogant people-gosh!!who needs ur attitude???
lazy people-get up n work up man!!!!no ones getting stuffs 4 free….

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5 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT MYSELF.................
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tagged by my beshtesht buddy tushar....here r 5 random facts about myself.




1.i am an utterly disorganized person.i forget where i keep things which are damn important.my room is always "litterd" with clothes and books.i clean my room every 3 days.so there is a lot of dust also,chocolate wrappers(me crazy about chocolates u c)....ummm...thats it.

2.i day dream a lot about how i would be about one month later,one year later,one decade later.....and so on and so forth.

3.i love books.but these days i am not getting to read many.so i am always sad.i have started reading blogs instead,specially that of tushar and once or twice of a girl named pankhuri.

4.i love changing my looks every now and then.you will never find me in the same hairstyle a month later.you will always notie that my dressing style changes as the shape of the moon.

5.i love kohl.i usually don’t step out of my house without putting kohl in my eyes.






5 things u would find in my bag...................
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again tagged by my beshtesht buddzzz.....
1. kohl pencil-revlon usually.
2. deo-i love smelling good always.
3. F.M radio-cant live without music.
4. my cell phone-i love calling friends and messaging them whenever i can.
5. lip gloss-gosh! how can i forget that!!!!!!!

DATING MANTRA

this is for all those beautiful people out there who love dating-SAFE DATING.here i will write regularly every week and give you some awesum tips about dating-experienced,logical,as per the social norms,safe and compiled.so you never need to wonder whats right and whats not.....
FOR GALS-
"there r lotsa no-nos abt dating.i cud rite a buk abt thm(laughs)but i thnk d most imprtnt one is trying hard 2 gt the guys inrst n becum the centre of attention.it can b sucha turn off."-KARAN WAHI,fame" remix".
DO-:
1.chat him up-its imprtnt 4 bth d guy n d gurl 2 mk n effrt 2 strike a convo...u shud ditch ur shyness n talk 2 d guy.gt 2 knw him.........!!!!!
2.fool around-i always hear gurls say dat d one quality they want in a guyis a gr8 sense of humour.bt i thnk 4 a guy 2, a gurls sense of humour is imprtnt...atleast a lil bit.
3.make urself comfy-wat matters on a date is tht wat u r wearing looks nice bt also dat u feel comfortable in.dont put on a show................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DONT-:
1.fake it-be urself.pretending 2 b sumthng u r nt mite wrk 4 a while bt nt in d long run.once he discovers the real u,he is bound 2 love n admire u 4 it.
2.be too cool-its gud 2 play hard 2 get.guys love it wen u do dat.but dun b toooo snobish or u will ruin d game.
3.wander-be true 2 ur guy.try nt 2 hover here n thr,flirting wid othr guys.if u really like the guy,u will keep ur roving eye in check.
SO GURLS OUT THERE,ENJOY BUT TRY 2 FOLLOW ALL THESE.............THEY R AFTA ALL UR DATING MANTRAS............RYT??????

A POEM BY MY KID BROTHER IN CLASS 5............

INDIA-MY MOTHERLAND



india,the land of prosperity,
but b4 the britishers came,it was a golden bird 4 me,
and when the britishers came they led india to poverty,
but when we fought 4 our freedom,they took us in2 their custody,
mahatma gandhi,alone was not able 2 free the country,
but when he got the support of people,
he made the english realize the mistake of their country.

DREAMS UNFULFILLED

I had some dreams, some pretty dreams,
And I had dreamt to give them shape,
And yes they had that needed gleam,
And sure they were true to their name.

I dreamt that I could touch the sun,
So I started to climb a mountain,
I dreamt to quench my soul’s thirst,
So I set to find a fountain.

I dreamt that I could touch the stars,
So I jumped high along the longest length,
I dreamt to hold the running hours,
So I clenched my fist with all my strength.

I dreamt to fly like a bird,
So I spread my hands to feel the air,
I dreamt to have a voice that could be heard,
So I opened wide my noteless neck.

But all these desires,these dreams,these fires,
Of heart and soul and mind,
Were put to death, a sudden death,
And I was forced to leave them behind.

My little dreams, my baby dreams,
Were not even still mature,
But they were thrashed,with deadly means,
All this they did’nt endure.

Oh! There they lied,
Oh! what blood! what mess!
In tattered flesh and moans suppressed,
They cried with pain, but all in vain,
As now they are forever dead.

Badi zalim hain ye palkein,

hasratein banati hain,
sheeshe k sapne sajati hain,
aur,
gham mein jhuk kar toot jati hain

Just cheking

a lil pain ,
a lil pleasure,
a lil heaping up of treasure ,
then no more gazing upon da sun,
all things must end dat have begun.
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like fragrance 4rom a flower,
like minytes 4rom an hour,
like rays from da sun,
like feet 4rom "run",
like wings 4rom da bird,
like a song nevr heard,
u;ve stolen ma heart,
oh wat have u done?
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